Queen with No Competitors

In one of those days when she missed her sons, and could not see them around her any more, as she used to. She also missed her grandsons, because they are not playing with her and near her, any more as they used to. So, she started asking herself, where is everybody, did they desert her?! Do they no more want her?! Is she becoming the pain in their hearts trying to avoid?! This is what she was afraid of! It was done by the sons of many others; they were fighting on carrying their responsibilities. Each one is trying to get red of them, by loading them on the others. But, why to worry, they have been away for not more than one day! May be they are some how busy with something, and don't want to disturb her as usual. With the extension of the period and passing of time, she could not grasp the idea of their absence. She kept on calling her daughters and friends; perhaps they might know the reason behind their disappearing. She received the answer suddenly and surprisingly, so what she was afraid of has happened! Her sons have left her accompanied by their wives and kids, ran away without saying good by or softening her heart. They have traveled enjoying their holidays, without thinking of her and her state without them.

Did not take long since her husband laid his head down on the ground, and she has received the deed of her freedom? That freedom which was long waited for, and before it she was like a pigeon with trimmed wings, and could not fly. Marriage knot was tying her down not to take off, and holding her to the ground, with so many responsibilities toward the others. With this freedom she has got part of what she was looking for, so she flow like a pigeon swimming in the wide atmosphere, un wearied about what was going on around her or hidden in the days to come. Still she has to get red of the last of her responsibilities, so she planed to get her sons married, and transfer their responsibilities to their wives. There she has got what she was aiming to, but is that everything she has to do?! So, now can be free doing what she desires the time she chooses?! Is she capable now to get what she wishes?

Seven years have passed, since she has buried the corpse of her husband in his grave, when he moved to the supreme comrade. From that moment on she did not leave traveling in and out of the country, even did not leave the various types of traveling, tourism or religious. Did not leave visiting her family and friends, even what has been introduced to her as a matter of courtesy. Did not miss wedding ceremonies of those close her, and those whom she did not know? All of this without any consideration to time, night or day, or care for weather, summer or winter. She was moving from one place to another, and landing where ever she wished and on whom she wished. Like a butterfly posing her attractive rainbow colors; or a bee disposed of her male partner, and remained the queen of the nest with no one else to dispute.

She has reached her 70th birthday; and no longer as she was in her youth days, or in her husband's life. Then her children were not to leave her behind in their traveling or moving, in the presence of their father or even after his death. But that period was very short, and quickly ended according to her calculations and estimates. Although she was looking forward to it with all her senses, and has decided to invest it to the last drop of her forehead sweat. But it has gone terribly fast, and she was unable to meet all her ambitions and aspirations. As if it was a very short dream and did not last for more than few seconds, or as if she has moved from the flaming sun to the cold shades, in a period that did not feel it was passing. Everything has finished in a blink of an eye, disease has ridden her and she has aged in a unbelievable way, and was not even giving time to reach all her aspirations. She was not able to absorb the situation or accept it, so she was resisting the human nature with all the force she was given. But she has no choice!

She has seen her beauty exhausted, her body sagging, and her height shorting, because of the diseases and aging. Her trunk was swinging left and right, whenever she was attempting to move from one place to another, because of the weakness that overcome her and the decrease in her endurance and resistance. She was saying while seeing that: I am walking like and old aged woman, what has happen to me?! Those who are older than me still living in peace and comfort, why I am different from them?! It was so difficult on her sons to move or travel with her, because of her moving difficulty and body weight. That movement difficulty was affecting her before the others, but she dose not want to accept or surrender, or gives up to the actual reality. That was the straw that broke the camel's back, or the straw to which the drown person holds to!

Therefore her sons were forced to flee away from her, to be able to move and travel without her. That did not comfort their consciences, or close their eyelid, but they did not want to heart her, or load her with more that she could take. But that has annoyed her and has its impact on herself harshly, and increased her the feelings that her sons abandoning her and distancing from her. As a human being she likes change, and loves to keep in touch with people. Was it her fault becoming old and aged?! Did she deserve to be get red off and abandoned?! Are they entitled to enjoy life and leave her?! This is what was going on in her head, beside her feelings of her short life, and her desire to exploit the opportunity before the due date of her death, and the closeness of what she can not escape from.

Written by: Hussein Mashamea

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